1. Am I happy with where I am in life right now?
Yes, I believe that I am.
2. What am I passionate about? What am I doing to pursue my passion?
I am passionate about an existence in which I am an unadulterated version of myself. Where the thought of what others think or desire no longer limit who I am. I have always lived outside the box however my aim has been not to wander too far. To pursue this, I love with abandon now. I ignore odd stares to stop my car in the rain and finish a poem dancing wildly among my thoughts. If I want to take a selfie, I take a selfie. If I walls are too bare, it's time to buy some artwork. If I want to read all of Alice Walker's work, I shall do so. I allow myself to feel these urges and respond to them accordingly.
3. Who and What things are weighing me down that I need to get rid of? How will I do it?
It's a who and a what. Society is weighing me down. Specifically the notion of what it means to be me. A woman. A black woman. A Caribbean woman. A mother and provider. A poet. A lover. How these identities are allowed to merge however only to "their" liking. My marital status, children's hair, how I dress, weight loss, etc. It's exhausting. Moving forward, I will simply ignore societal demands and do as I please.
4. What do I need to forgive myself for?
I need to forgive myself for playing my part in willful ignorance. It's a hell of a drug.
5. When did I feel most alive this year? What was sacred about that moment?
I felt most alive this year when I became a full fledged vegetarian. I had been struggling with this transition for quite some time and was growing tired with the duplicitous lifestyle. I fasted, mediated and prayed on it for a couple days and came out of that experience with no desire for flesh at all. Like magic. The sacred moment was when I could look in the mirror to see a vegetarian dread-locked woman. It was like "Wow, there you are, Storm. Nice to meet you."
6. What self-love actions can I practice on a daily basis?
Meditation, a long walk, & a uniform of sweat pants and wife beaters.
7. What do I want to let go of? (i.e self doubt, fear, etc)
I want to let go of that obsessive desire to want more for other people than they want for themselves.
8. What do I dedicate 2015 to? (i.e independence, artistic pursuits)
I dedicate 2015 to dating myself. To look in the mirror and say "Bae, what do you want to do today?" or "Bae, look what I bought your sexy ass". Tattoos I've wanted for so long, books that need reading, restaurants that need dining, mountains that need hiking, etc.
9. What did I learn about myself in 2014?
I learned that I am awesome and an okay cook. Also I don't like laser tag. And it's okay to love someone more than they love you so long as you don't love them more than you. Yes, I've learned a lot *smile*.
10. What did 2014 represent to me on my path?
It represented a year of the "take backs" so to speak. I took a large sack and took a walk around. Give me back my heart, Nigga. Give me back my body, children (still working on it). Give me back my health, meat. Give me back my God, white America. I took a lot of things back. This bag is full and I couldn't be happier.
Happy New Year to everyone.
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