A Year Post-Break Up

So. Where am I right now?  Growing. Living. Learning. Healing.  More in the past few months than I have in years. It's been a year. A year since I freed myself from a toxic relationship. I'm such a fighter I don't even realizing when I am battling myself. When I am battling God. I didn't want to leave the person I was with because I felt responsible for who they would become without me around to "mother" them. Looking back, I can now see it as a blessing that they pushed me away. Like far far away. *smile* As soon as I left, my heart and mind kind of slapped each other a high five. Doors just started opening for me. I looked in the mirror and said "Hi, I'm Storm. What a pleasure it is to finally meet you. What do you want to do now?". And my soul poured out all it has been longing for and then some. Some of the things I was aware of. Other things threw me for a loop! We are in for an adventure my friend. I wanted my own place (nicknamed "The Cavern") and got it. I wanted a new name so I went to court and got it. I wanted to become a vegan and I changed my diet accordingly. I wanted a job that would be closer to home and guess what? I went out and got that shit. Like damn, my power to manifest is on a hundred, thousand, billion! *Kanye voice* And for over a year I've been debating about whether or not to go blonde. Guess what I did? I went blonde motherfucker. Okay okay, let me reel in my inner rapper. I just feel like I can breathe again. Self work is not for the weak though. Taking the time to get to know yourself and make real decisions about the way you plan to live your life is a bit frightening not to mention enervatingsome days. Especially if your journey includes being a single mother to three small children. All this to say that I am so happy. So grateful. Every morning I rise, there is a smile on my face. This will sound odd however I feel like a newly wed. Whenever I hear my new last name I practically glow. And so now that it has been year, guess what my lickle Caribbean soul wants? A bae. I knoooooow. I never thought that I would actually want a boyfriend but I kind of do. I never had a boyfriend before. Yes. I have three children and I have never had a real boyfriend before. What do you do with them? *smile* It's partially my fault and I'll get into that in another post but the bottom line is I want to be valued by a strong and sexy member of the opposite sex. This is big. This is new for me. This wanting an actual relationship thing. Not a situation-ship. Not a jump off (who doesn't love a jump off???). Someone who feels like Ed Sheeran must have felt when he wrote the song "One". I love Ed Sheeran by the way. Anyway, I will now be actively dating. A scary venture for me however I'm positive my new manifestation powers will pull me through. I can't believe it. I just might be growing up. If Tan were here she would be cheering me on with pom poms and a whistle....lol. I might even buy an iron and a new wardrobe. Wish me luck although that's not necessary. I'm sure I'll find "the one".  I shall keep you updated.